Finally school's out . I finally can enjoy myself although it's just 2 weeks. Better than nothing , I shall say. No more problem statement, presentation and long hours of lessons for awhile.
Anyway, bayb have been working and working and his attitude and temper have been real bad. Maybe its because that he have alot of problems with him lately . I will try my best to be beside him . But sometimes , I feel that its really hard . I really sometimes cant hold back my temper when he suddenly say me for no reason but he doesnt mean it . But sometimes I feel so hard to tell him how I feels when he treat me like this.
He is my super good and nice bf so in these times when he is like that I will try to understand him more. Which that is what I have been doing .
People change and oftentimes, they dont know it until some people tell them . But when tell, the person just refuse to believe . I really dun know how to say anymore. I dun want us to end . But if the fate between us really come to an end . No matter how much we want get back , we wont be able to .
he is just plain dashin lookin
Bayb is going for his attachment alr and I am gonna miss him a whole bunch but I dun think he will feel this way . I always feel that I am the one more with everything . And its the truth. I can do alot of things for him, he just cant do it back for me. Maybe because I love him too much until I dun know how to love him .
I just want a bf who really can show me how he appreciate, love and care bout me. Is it just that difficult ?
Yo people, I finally able to blog happily and peacefully . I mention bout my my health problems and I went to see doctor almost every week but luckily its all settled. I once make a promise that if I can be in pink of health, I will cherish everyone around me especially my parents, siblings, family and baby. I will try to fulfill that part as much as possible.
My phone really died on me just now in the afternoon and there is no internet for 7 hours straight and I was so fucking bored. I dun even know how did I survive through the 7 hours without internet and hp . HAHA
Bayb should be darn happy cause I wont be able to call and sms him cause if hp malfunction . It have been very long since me and baby went together and watch movie alr. I wanna spend some quality time before his attachment. Cause he wont be in school if he is starting his attachment next semester. Its so hard for me to meet him when both of us are in school alr. Not to say when he is going to have attachment next semester but whats the point ? He doesn't even get bothered by it.
I want us to be like last time
One things come after another, why cant things in life just goes on smoothly for the rest of my life. I miss that kind of life that I was having few years back . I really do =(
THE QUEEN <3` @* 7:52 AM
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Sunday, May 02, 2010
HI ALL =)
Nothing really much happen . But me and baby gt a really really big fight last week . It resulted me crying in class and leaving class halfway . How more dramatic can it be ? Cause when we started to quarrel, it started to rain . But after awhile we cooled down, we talked things through and finally we were okay =)
My health is getting worse but I going for check up to make sure that I am okay . I promised to cherish everything more if I were to know that I am in good of health.
Anyway, FYP is driving me crazy with all the planning stuff and soon to come . All that coding stuff will be knocking on my door soon. Sigh, how I wish I am in event management course or something cause they get to go attachment as a replacement for FYP. But for other courses, we have to work ourselves of for FYP . So fucking unfair.
TSK TSK TSK
Starhub agree to waive my extremely high data usage bill but I still have to pay another 88 dollars for my remaining bill. Not forgetting to mention that I have to save money to see doctor. I seriously hope that I will be fine. *CROSS FINGERS*
THE QUEEN <3` @* 6:28 AM
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