Do yoo ever feel not appreciated in the family ? No matter how yoo much yoo put in, they still see as none ?
Well this is not the first time, it happens this way. I helped my mum change the tv set then she was keep scolding me. Frankly speaking, I dun wan why she always like this. She say my dad bring back all the tv all spoilt one. I was like wtf ? At least he bring back tv for our family to see right ? She always like that just think of the bad things, she never think that the tv she also got a part watching one. My two fingers was kiam-ed by the tv set yet I din say a thing. Yoo all know how heavy is the TV set ? its about 20 -30 kg yoo know ? And it is very painful sia. 2 of my fingers is swollen and 1 of them have a cut in it.
Whenever things cannot work, they ask me. Cannot find charger, they ask me . Tv set no sound, computer no sound, lap top no connection all ask me fix. How I know all this sia ? I always the one scolded cause I am always the one at home. I really hope the my sibiling will care more about my feelings and out me in their shoes. I know from last time they dun like me. But doesnt mean I must do these for them. They can try share burden. My sibilings always give me that kind of look like she is the princess. Have to wash their bowls after they eat. They think is very easy to do meh ? They should try doing it. Then they will know how it feel ? I know everyone have to do some. And I am the only one at home more often so I have to do. I cant stand this.
Whatever la, everytime wanna make them laugh. They think I not serious, still childish. I never heard my mum praised me before all she do is to say things to lower my morale. They never think I got feelings meh ? Well, everyone have including animals.
I cant get bayb so I am blogging to let my fustrations out. My friends all tell me that younger ones are the one being pampered but for this family. It is not like that for me. I know my mummy loves me but sometimes she may express it in a wrong way. I know all the things that she try to provide me with . Not forgetting my dad, I still loves him like how he loves me. I love yoo, mummy and daddy.
I miss my bayb. xoxo
THE QUEEN <3` @* 4:32 AM
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