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2010-11-22T22:52:00.000-08:00

Weakling in love

Yes, I admit that I am a weakling in love and I suck at it. I sometimes wonder that why is it that causes me to be like this. There is mainly 2 types of girls around me.

First, is those who can easily put down the relationship even tho they have been together for like fuckin long or they really loves the person but break up with the person cause of their characters.

Secondly is obviously those girls that are like me. We doesn't have the guts to really do so even thou we always hang the words around our mouth.

I have been wondering why am I like this ? Is it I am not strong will enough to do so or I cant bear to leave the person I love at all. Well, I think its both. I always place him as a very important person in my life. But he just don't treat me the same way as I treated him. He goes out with his friends and din tell me and when I found out he dont think its a big deal. I wanna tell him how sucky he have been letting me feel but he always being the one frustrated and telling me that he is sick and tired of me saying all these to him. So slowly, I began to keep everything to myself, tried my best not to make it feel this way.

Soon, I became very conscious of the things I am doing and the things that I will say. I dont want him to feel frustrated again cause if he feels so, he will become irritated of me talking and will just hang up the phone on me. I can't get angry cause he will get more angry and we will start to quarrel and he will say hurtful things to me which leads me to think if you really love me, how can all these words come out of your mouth ?

I am tired and extremely exhausted. I only can vent all my anger and thoughts here. I still love him, I really do but is it all worth it ? Even thou I change my temper, he still do things behind me back which I really detest. My brain is sick and tired of all these nonsense and he is not sorry over what he did.

He have his sweet side too. He will sms me sweet and cute sms and I already contended with all these he is giving me . Is it enough ? Its my life, why am I always trying to make others happy but not myself ? Are you sure you want to spend your rest of your life with him ? Right now, the answer is NO. It is because I will be unhappy for the rest of my life if he continues to be like this.

I need time to sort my thoughts and feelings. No point wasting time if he doesnt cherish all these things that I have done for him and things we gone through these years.

2010-07-13T22:02:00.000-07:00

My blog have been dead since May. Many things happen lately . Whether its my grandma' cancer or be it relationship problems. It have always been so stressful .

The only people that truly know what you want is actually yourself. Besides, having so much things around you already pissing you off but you still have to fork out extra time and effort to maintain a relationship. You have to do all the planning and all the initiating of asking ur bf out.

They cant seems to remember what class you having today, whether you did something nice to your hair or there is something wrong with you . But on the contrary, you can remember almost everything of them . Like what class they having today and etc.

If you dont do all the initiating and planning of your outing with ur guy, then you will be worried that you cant meet them that day but to them, they dont its an issue.

Then you will start and question yourself all these :

Girls like me are everywhere maybe this is why you dont learn to cherish me. Why should I stay to make myself feel worst ? Being initiative in a r/s is too tiring, I have to plan every outing with you and make hints to just let you know, to call back when I am angry to comfort me. Why things have to be so spoon fed ? This aint love no more.....

2010-05-29T07:27:00.001-07:00

Finally school's out . I finally can enjoy myself although it's just 2 weeks. Better than nothing , I shall say. No more problem statement, presentation and long hours of lessons for awhile.

Anyway, bayb have been working and working and his attitude and temper have been real bad. Maybe its because that he have alot of problems with him lately . I will try my best to be beside him . But sometimes , I feel that its really hard . I really sometimes cant hold back my temper when he suddenly say me for no reason but he doesnt mean it . But sometimes I feel so hard to tell him how I feels when he treat me like this.

He is my super good and nice bf so in these times when he is like that I will try to understand him more. Which that is what I have been doing .

People change and oftentimes, they dont know it until some people tell them . But when tell, the person just refuse to believe . I really dun know how to say anymore. I dun want us to end . But if the fate between us really come to an end . No matter how much we want get back , we wont be able to .

he is just plain dashin lookin

Bayb is going for his attachment alr and I am gonna miss him a whole bunch but I dun think he will feel this way . I always feel that I am the one more with everything . And its the truth. I can do alot of things for him, he just cant do it back for me. Maybe because I love him too much until I dun know how to love him .

I just want a bf who really can show me how he appreciate, love and care bout me. Is it just that difficult ?

2010-05-15T07:52:00.000-07:00

Yo people, I finally able to blog happily and peacefully . I mention bout my my health problems and I went to see doctor almost every week but luckily its all settled. I once make a promise that if I can be in pink of health, I will cherish everyone around me especially my parents, siblings, family and baby. I will try to fulfill that part as much as possible.

My phone really died on me just now in the afternoon and there is no internet for 7 hours straight and I was so fucking bored. I dun even know how did I survive through the 7 hours without internet and hp . HAHA

Bayb should be darn happy cause I wont be able to call and sms him cause if hp malfunction . It have been very long since me and baby went together and watch movie alr. I wanna spend some quality time before his attachment. Cause he wont be in school if he is starting his attachment next semester. Its so hard for me to meet him when both of us are in school alr. Not to say when he is going to have attachment next semester but whats the point ? He doesn't even get bothered by it.

I want us to be like last time

One things come after another, why cant things in life just goes on smoothly for the rest of my life. I miss that kind of life that I was having few years back . I really do =(

and i miss them tooo

buddy, dave jony =))

2010-05-02T06:28:00.000-07:00

HI ALL =)

Nothing really much happen . But me and baby gt a really really big fight last week . It resulted me crying in class and leaving class halfway . How more dramatic can it be ? Cause when we started to quarrel, it started to rain . But after awhile we cooled down, we talked things through and finally we were okay =)

My health is getting worse but I going for check up to make sure that I am okay . I promised to cherish everything more if I were to know that I am in good of health.

Anyway, FYP is driving me crazy with all the planning stuff and soon to come . All that coding stuff will be knocking on my door soon. Sigh, how I wish I am in event management course or something cause they get to go attachment as a replacement for FYP. But for other courses, we have to work ourselves of for FYP . So fucking unfair.

TSK TSK TSK

Starhub agree to waive my extremely high data usage bill but I still have to pay another 88 dollars for my remaining bill. Not forgetting to mention that I have to save money to see doctor. I seriously hope that I will be fine. *CROSS FINGERS*

2010-04-23T08:10:00.000-07:00

OMG , school just started and it also means that FYP have started. Me and ya mei have been working our ass of for this FYP. Fuck and its just the starting only.

So many things at hand for me to handle. Starhub charging me high hp bills and still haven get back to me, progress on FYP, relationship problem. I dun know la. All these keep coming . Damn stress. Some of my good friends ard me are breaking up with their bf. See already damn sad . Somemore they look so sweet together but everything is so sudden .

Looking at me and bayb, although we are not that sweet or what and we have constant quarrels here and there but our love is still quite strong I can say But for stable wise, I not so sure bout it . We have been together almost 2 year alr but I still not ready to meet his parents yet . I scare they cant accept me or any other reasons that may arise. I shall see how things goes.

Happy 20th month bayb

me and bayb

my chio shoes

LOVE THEM SO MUCH

Anyway, circle line is up and I heard its fucking fast 45 -50 mins to bedok. Faster than 168. One day, I shall board it . I swear. Everyone have board it except for me.

Have been hanging ard with bayb friends recently, quite a nice batch of people. Funny too. They never failed to make me and bayb to laugh our ass off for they things they done randomly around us.

2010-04-10T04:20:00.000-07:00

sorry for the 1 month late blog entry . Busy wit lazyness and lots of stuff.

ZOOM ZOOM ZOOM !!!

How fast time flies. I still thought I had just started my holidays last week but holidays have already finished like 98 percent alr. When school reopens, I have so many things to do .

FYP is the most troublesome of all. But luckily grouped with ya mei and desmond so I can slack abit and bitch ard abit.

I spend like 6 hours posting this entry not because it is long . But because I get too carried away watching tv . hahas,

ANYWAY ANYWAY ANYWAY...

Went shi sha with baby that day, yeah and just the both of us. We managed to finish the whole fucking thingy b ourselves by we spend like 4 hours there. Its quite cosy. We went to a upstairs one sofa and cushions seats. There is also a damn cool vintage piano. The best is there is only us. hahahs.

We had strawberry . At first, it was abit choking . I was wondering why so I try blowing out some smoke and it did. It got BETTER !!!! Damn shiok to shi sha and enjoy life like this.

But boo, school is starting on thursday . Just plain thinking, I get shivers all over. But another holidays at the end of may. WEE. Going cruise in June . I cant wait , seriously.

My po po (grandmother) is in hospital and she had a slight stroke on her hand. she cant move it . I damn sad over it . Hope she can get better . I seriously hope so .

2010-03-29T18:59:00.000-07:00

♥♥♥

okay, as I promised . I promise to blog.

Something good to share, I called the freaking starhub and they are going to give me a starhub voucher . I told them that it has been freaking long since I have one . And the Customer care consultant was so good, he say that it could be done. hahas.

Maybe I really can get an iphone or a blackberry . Just as I wanted. HEE

On the other hand , something just piss me off when I saw some things on the blog just now. Anyway, I thinks that it's funny to read at some things belonging to the past. Like some stupid letter that I wrote for my ex bf ss which I think is completely retarded and stupid. Recalling back, I really think that it is a stupid thing to do.

Imagine when their gf saw what we wrote, how immature and stupid the stuff were. They will probably think that you are some kind of retard or major dutch monster. ahaha. Cant stand this kind of humilation thou. So I guess, I will stop writing any of this stupid things.

I have to many thing to blog bout . For example, recently, I kept hanging out at katong, and parkway parade . I beginning to love there. House are vintage looking, famous katong laksa is there, super yummy and cheap chicken rice, L4D2, dota and C.S in the lan shop, Mango in isetan enough for me to shop and lots more . I will be posting the picture I took in Katong with a DSLR =DD

Glad and baby

glad and baby (2)

baby

famous katong laksa

the killers

macro

katong houses

famous chocolate shop at katong

baby

LAKSAAA !!!!

Forgetting one point is that, it is fucking near east coast . Me and baby is going there today. Hope its a blast . we gonna go there to cycle and fly kite. How immature but I LIKE

♥♥♥

2010-03-15T19:52:00.000-07:00

me and birthday girl

WEEEEEE ~~~

It have been a good week still. Hope it will stay like this for the rest of the week . Anyway, it was yue xiang birthday that saturday and it was awesome. The birthday was held at NRSCC at tanah merah . Although the place is at tanah merah but it is not even close to baby's house. It like very further inside near to the changi sea already .

David =)

me and david

YO !!

Blah ~~

good hair day

David's phone even got indonesia reception . Damn lol. We have to cab there in order to reach the place. The place is all bungalows and it damn big and nice. Its just like a brand new apartment. It has everything there. Even the tv have SCV. Whole place is air con and its two storey with 3 rooms upstairs . There is a lot of facilities such as swimming pool, karaoke, billard, pool, arcade and bowling alley.

The whole place only got us the ITE cliques and some of her working friends and relatives. We have the whole buffet to ourselves which is damn delicious . All of us have quite a few rounds. We even played poker and blackjack on the dining table . I won like 3 bucks . hahah. Better than nothing lei.

me and joey

writing wishes

soon seng disturbing baby

me and kai ling

Mwarks

me and soon seng

Finally the cutting of the cake, we practically had like 5 hands all around her head when she was picking candles with her mouth and we just pushed her head down to the cake . And her face was all covered with chocolate . Her parents is like laughing their way through.

Rive gauche 21 birthday cake

same as mine but mine is oreo cheesecakeeee

yue xiang and her dad

omg, she look so nice

Smile

family picture

thats her face when she was being pushed . LOL

After that, we slacked around and went play pool with the cliques but me and david decided to go home early and we talk bout ghost stories all the way back . Damn creepy.

Anyway, me and baby is going meet and eat the famous scissors cut curry rice. Will update later . Check back for more . Follow me on twitter and tumblr =)

2010-03-10T06:57:00.000-08:00

♥♥

BLING BLING BLING

I just finish bling-ing my mp3 and it is so damn chio now . Looks completely and utterly different from its last time black and disfigured skin. I super love it now and I love to flaunt it when I am in the MRT, bus and wherever. It just so chic.

weeeeeeeeee =DDD

♥♥

I borrow a DSLR Nikon Camera from Gary (Cousin) on the day of the paramore concert. We went like 4 am to Singapore Indoor Stadium to queue for the free standing area. But there is already like people there queuing for the concert already . And there is a fuckin big bunch of people in front who keep letting people in the quene . So I asked them about it , they fuckin show attitude and keep sending people to talk to me.

Fuckers, seriously . I dun understand why some malays are like this. My malays friends arent like this at all. It is all the fuckings Mats and Minahs, they are extremely noisy and childish . They think what they are doing is so fuckin cool, right and no one dare to offend them . Whatever la , they are just dumb and plain stupid.

THEY JUST IRRITATE MY EYES , My malays friends are all not like this . Dun know why they wanna be such attention seeker in the wrong way and make people hate the way the act.

ANYWAY ANYWAY ANYWAY ....

Baby was sweet enough to wake up damn early for me and help me take my purse from shermain's house even though he sleep like 5 am . He still bother to wake up at 10.30 am to help me and he still say is his job. Gosh, I am so happy . He is just so sweet and he kept on worrying abt me when I was queuing for the paramore concert. He waited for me to reach there then he can go sleep. Hee hee. Love you la hor.

After helping my cousin to queue for paramore concert, me and baby went to kallang leisure park to watch Jack Neo's new movie "Being Human". And it happens that day, baby told me bout JN 's scandal which totally shock me as I still thought he is the good husband and daddy kind. Din expect he to be like this. I shall blog abt him on my next blog post . hahahs.

Moving on, after movie we had katong laksa and shopped around parkway parade for awhile and headed home.

♥♥

Going for katong laksa and Eunos tml.

YIPPEEEEEE

MORE DSLR TML

♥♥♥

2010-03-08T06:22:00.000-08:00

Internet sucks today but I still wanna blog. Shit things happen all time and I am feeling quite fucked up by it. I just feel not appreciated . And no one comes to my blog also . So like what is they point that I blog ? But certain times, a blog is better than a listening ear that I will need. It will listen to everything that I will have to say whether its good or bad.

I really need to rant at the things that have been on my head for a pretty long time. I have a feeling and doesn't know if anyone has ever come across it before a not. Someone who is very close to me have given me a " don't appreciate what I have done for him " feeling and in real fact, he did that to me . Maybe I was being paranoid to think like that but what if he do that in your face ? The way he talk to you is really bad and spiteful that you cant take it anymore.

When he did that to me just now. Out of a sudden, a gush of feelings come to me , I dont know how to describe it . I just suddenly feel damn sian and dun wanna get bothered with anything from him . Maybe not forever but at least just for now.

My mummy once told me, if it is yours then it will be . But who came out with that ? who say if its really yours , it will be ? who can justify that ? It is just a saying that last time people come up with to comfort the people who are feeling heartbroken due to relationship.

I just dont know what to do already . I am completely loss . I dun know who to turn to . I dun wanna to trouble people around me . I wanna solve the problem with him but everytime he just shuts me off by saying no need repeat already. I already know what you wanna say . But the point is that I haven even say finish, don't you think that when he is being like this, he feel sian when you keeping talking but there is no choice, you have to and must say because we all have to solve it if he doesn't let me continue how are we suppose to solve the problems we have ?

I really don't wanna end it but everytime when this happens, I feel tired, really really really very tired. I cannot stand it anymore. Last chance is always being given. But whenever this happen, I really wanna leave this but I just can't maybe because I like this so whenever I say something bad or whatever , it always doesn't come true so maybe he got used to it . But someday, it will happen .

But I still love you, bayb =DD

hee hee

2010-03-01T21:37:00.000-08:00

PRAWNING PART 2

Terence, baby's friend went prawning with us for the last time that day and we caught like 70 prawns . MAJOR HAPPINESS. First time we caught so much together =))) but baby have to leave early to meet his friends leaving me with terence, ka jie and glad to continue prawning.

After that, we went to let the tze char stall to help us cook the prawns, they were fuckin not happy when we brought 70 prawns for them to cook . Cause normally we only ask them to cook like 20 prawns but this time their face is like major turn off when he bring the prawns over .

this is terence

Fuck, they also can increase the money we are paying for them to cook the prawns . Stupid china people. They are just being fucked up cause they can cook something nice. Super dumb one la.

Yesterday, a china waitress at pasta mania cwp was also being fucked up. Her attitude is like irritating . She simple just snatch the receipt from me hands without even asking can she even look at it anot . She just simply snatch away and see still got what orders left .

FUCKIN DUTCH BAG

Okay done with talking bout foreign service. Moving on to the food testing of my sis and my bro in law at hilton hotel. The food is not bad and the environment and service is not bad either. What they all choose for the wedding dinner menu is damn unique and different from other wedding.

Both of them keep saying that they wanna diet for the wedding photo shoot . HAHAS. Damn funny . Hope its a blast . I wanna have niece and nephew ASAP.

Hope that we will be fine. Things have been abit rocky for us but you tell me that it will be over soon and I believe you . Dont let me down again . hahas. I LOVE YOU MANY MANY.

2010-02-23T22:18:00.000-08:00

credits to joey

PRAWNING PRAWNING PRAWNING

My life is plain boring cause it will only be full of prawning . I spent like @$@#@% money on prawning. I think I can buy 2 fred perry bag already and its time to stop. ahahs. Fuck , but its addictive. Went prawning with ka jie, terence, glad, jacob and baby . Had fun like usual . Ka jie caught 2 of the super big one. But he is was like damn clumsy he drop the second one back to the water.

OMFG !###@% .

baby and his buay song face

ka jie

he is standing on the edge of the wall

see what is he doing

but he managed to catch

look at the prawn pincer. the normal is damn small compared to the fuckin big one

OMG, LOOK AT HOW LONG IS THE PINCERS

Ka jie named it chole

the guys

baby, jacob, ka jie, terence and glad

happy family

signature pose

prawn caught smoking

FAIL

After that , we went to geylang for tau huay, we walked damn fucking far and the whole place is like fulled with hookers and its not even 11 yet . Damn polluted . Baby was like faster walk with me, Don't walk so slow lei , Appu nei nei later come catch you then you know . Damn LOL. Fun hanging out baby's friends =D big smile

LOVE

2010-02-18T17:16:00.001-08:00

BORING CNY I SHALL SAY

I only spent 1 day of cny visiting relatives . Super bored. It wasnt like last year . So I spent my cny on watching televison . Damn pathetic. I din even had valentine's days. No present no nothing . Relationship is screwed, Life is screwed. I wanna talk to him bout it, he simple just cuts me off by saying ok ok , stop it. hah, what a bf.

Anyway back to cny, morning went to gu gu house. Watch how my dad and my relatives gamble. I nearly fainted. They played 21 and one hand bet minimum 30 dollars ? I can like do 3 hours of prawning with that . Daddy won over hundred plus in one round and he spilt the winning with me.

LOVE YOU DADDY

After that, we headed back to my grandma house and waited for my cousin to reach. Meanwhile, I watch TV again and played a few rounds of blackshots. I totally get pawned for the first game but simultaneously, I started to a hang of it and got better. hahas. Damn fun . I gonna download and play in my laptop but I dun think it can support . Super lousy one la mine.

When my cousin they all reached, its around 6 plus 7 and because of my mummy who cant stay longer for like 2 more hours keep rushing us back . I think I will spent my cny better . zzz. But they all are coming my house on Sat , so SIM SHERMAIN MY LCC you better come cause I wanna MJ till night . LOL

I gonna go prawning again with bayb, terence, ka jie and glad. WEEEEE ~~~ I SIMPLY LOVE PRAWNING. Anyone looking for kakis to prawn can contact me also =) will blog after I come back =)

me and shelia

SIM SHERMAIN with bro

she like to act cute

jayson

posing for next singapore ah lian model

me and my er yi

er yi and shermain

MJ-ing

he is fat (bryan)

shermain and mummy

bryan and popo

me and bryan

shermain and her daddy

shermain and daddy

fail sia, my face

woo, ang gong siao

me and popo

shermain and popo

girls in the family

shermain and my jie fu

twist

look at what my daddy is doing . LOL

2010-02-08T18:42:00.000-08:00

SORRY GUYS , ME WILL BE BLOGGING AFTER ALL MY EXAMS OKAY ?

LOVE YOU GUYS

2010-01-27T23:24:00.000-08:00

I finally use the crystal jade voucher that my doctor gave to me for christmas present . Me spend it with baby and kj . We ordered damn alot of food that make us fucking full in the end.

Starting, me and baby was still pondering whether can use the voucher anot then we approached them and asked and the china waiter replied : XIN XIN !!! Then we are welcome like super big VIP . Every waiter and waitress greeted us with HUAN YIN GUANG LIN . Super pai seh.

Me and baby took like 2o mins to decide what to eat and order. The service is good and the food is damn nice also . But the delivery of the food took quite long. We cleared everything that is on the plate and we are fucking full by then .

Ka jie and baby keep disturbing each other at there and they even disturb the auntie waitress when she was helping them to fill the water. Damn lame la they all. I took video of them. You all can see how lame they are . And Ka jie even try to snatch away my hp and make my phone battery fly all the way to a table damn far . Then he still keep laughing . Damn retarded .

retarded ka jie

clueless baby

Ka jie

enjoying his food

BABY

But I wanna have this kind of dinner again . It is just fun hanging out with baby and ka jie. They are always there to make me laugh .

WE WILL GO PRAWNING NEXT !!!

Gotta go and meet baby already . BYE BYE =)

2010-01-27T22:49:00.000-08:00

Pardon me for not posting anything . Juts that I am not very free . It either working, schooling or both. It was simply so tiring.

IN THE END

Me got real sick . I have a slight sore throat infection . I think baby passed it to me . And now I am spreading it around . HAHAs. I wanted to apply LOA (Leave of Absence) for the days I din went school . But baby say that it was redundant cause school is ending already so no point .

This sat is joey 21st birthday . Hope its gonna be a blast . I just love to meet my ITE cliques.

THEY ARE MADNESS, COOL AND LOVED =)

They spend the worst day of my life with me and when I need them they are always there. We know each other for going 5 years and it will keep going on and on .

our taxation teacher, Mr Ganesan

David sleeping in class

me and chan meng after chomp chomp

me and dav at AMK hub

Bing xian and David

the girls in the class

me and kai ling at standard chartered run

me and yue xiang at chalet

joey, kai ling, felicia and soon seng

me and joey at shanghai

me and yu ling at shanghai

Shanghai time

in the coach bus at shanghai

At the airport, preparing to go off

Felicia

me and sharul

soon seng and chan meng

me and mrs yu, mama yu

everyone together

I REALLY MISS THEM !!!!!!

2010-01-11T23:42:00.000-08:00

NEW YEAR NEW YEAR NEW YEAR

New Year have been fun fun fun . I went countdown with bayb and his friends during new year eve and we have lots of fun . I know its a little late to blog about it but I have been busy (hahah, what a excuse !!)

Anyway, that day I met up with bayb, glad and terence at Bugis first before heading to Clarke Quay. At first they told me they wanna go pub but after that change to east coast then to club again then to Boat Quay. Guys were always saying how fickle minded girls is but look what are they doing now.

We all decided to go meet them first then say. We boarded the bus and stop at Clarke Quay and walked to the place where they all are sitting . When we reached there, bayb's friends said hello to me. Damn cute can, all of them sitting in the railings and one by one say hello . HAHA

They keep discussing which pub to go but the problem is they are at only Clarke Quay. They din went other place to check things out . Lazy la, they all . And the terence keep disturbing people and bayb just kept on laughing . And I am standing there looking at bangalas.

So to stop wasting time, I suggested to go to boat quay cause there have more pubs laying around in one of the alleys. So we decided to go to Whiskey Bar. The area is damn big and cause we are early, we get to sit sofa seats. Damn comfortable can . So bayb started calling them and when they all reached, they kept going in and out to smoke luh.

Finally everyone started to seat down and enjoy the music and the KTV. We even played poker card games which is damn LMAO, suggested by bayb. It is putting the poker cards on the forehead and without looking . The biggest card or the smallest card must drink. Its damn fun when you play with a whole big group of friends .

ME LOVE ME LOVE

After that, they decided to go back bedok so I went home and fuck , me waited for night rider back woodlands for ard 2 hours. Fuck one sia. very very long , then still must stand all the way back to woodlands and the bus stop is like 15 mins away from my house some more. But I went to meet mark didi and nai di at rong sheng house for awhile and then back home to sleep.

I will blog again tml . Love you guys = )

2009-12-28T07:13:00.000-08:00

FUCK FUCK FUCK

MY FUCKING CHARGER IS SPOILED AGAIN . Fuck man. I am damn fucking irritated. I must go buy again . Fuck one lei . Then I cant use my lap top again . This kind of things just keep coming just when I have money. This things keep coming . I can never get my IPhone, I guess.

And baby is so engrossed with soccer that he is watching almost day and is seriously neglecting me. The best thing is that he dun know. Smart right ? Ask me dun tell him what is wrong and he will know it himself. Wth, then till now he still dun know. If I dun say it out what I dun like, he will know ?

Guys are like this, they think that know everything. They can predict everything and they also think that they are right in everything . They like to say that girls think too much and wanna find a fight or quarrel . They can just simply say dun get angry la , dun quarrel la BUT how can we dun get angry when you all are the one that are doing things to piss us off then when we are angry, they will say that we like to be angry and petty . WTF, really know how to tell them already . Do what also seems wrong to them . They never think that why they cant stop doing the things that we dun like then things wont be like this anymore. We all girls will also stop being so called "angry " or "petty" .

Guys also like to think that everything is a small matter and they are so insensitive with things around them. Their ego damn big, ask them do a little things or sweet things for us, they will have a reluctant attitude and tone and when we keep persuading them, they will do it unwillingly so then WHATS THE POINT ?

They like to say girls are paranoid but they never think why will we like that, because of what we act this way and because of who we acted in a paranoid way. They think we like to feel this way.

BUT WE DONT !!!

Which girls like to keep quarrel and feel damn lousy about the relationship. And everytime when we say wanna break up, we doesnt really mean it . We just want a suitable answer. We wanna feel important and feel that our bf really dun want us to go and wanna feel treasured by them . We just wanna feel that they cant live without us. All these can just make a gf go gaga already but guys just wanna give a opposite answers.

TSK TSK TSK

IS IT SO THAT DIFFICULT ?

CANT THEY JUS CHANGE THE THINGS WE DUN LIKE ?

THEY WILL JUST CHANGE FOR A FEW DAYS

AND BACK TO THE SAME PATTERN AGAIN LATER

THEN WE AS GF WILL HAVE TO TELL THEM AGAIN

AND BECAUSE OF THIS

WE WILL GET BLACKLISTED AS

NAGGY

DEMANDING

DIFFICULT TO GET WITH

ETC

BLAH BLAH BLAH ~

So for a girl, its is really difficult for us to handle a relationship when only one is only keep giving in and pushing through the limits. Being too easily to forgive her bf mistakes make us fall and hurt more deeper. We forgive you all cause we all trust that you all and will not repeat the same mistake again. so please, put us in your shoes when you all do anything.

2009-12-27T05:29:00.000-08:00

I AM BORED BORED BORED

Baby is watching soccer and I am watching some channel U movie. Quite nice actually . Its called The Promise, Xiang Ri Kui De Yue Ding.

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Its about a girl born with mild intellectual disability (MID) , slow in learning and often gullible. Like any teenager, Shan Shan is going through a coming of age, yearning for a special someone.

Tan Mei Juan , Shan's mother, is a single-parent mother who has raised her daughter single handedly. Extremely protective of Shan , Mei Juan devises a “sunflower pact”. If Shan ever falls in love and the boy she loves can fulfill the conditions as laid down in the “sunflower pact”, Mei Juan will give her blessings.

In a chance encounter, Shan falls in love with 19-year-old Wen Yuan who happened to be a slacker in his studies and life. Shan's innocence and attitude to life changed Wen Yuan.

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I'm still watching it but until now its quite nice. But the ending is not finished lei !!!! The guy will only go find back the girl if he can only really take care of the girl and love the girl unconditionally. The movie just end with a sunflower painting that he won the first prize with.

I thought of baby when the movie finished. Suddenly miss him super much. I am gonna find baby tml at bedok for breakfast .

LOVE LOVE LOVE

2009-12-26T06:21:00.000-08:00

PRAWNING PRAWNING PRAWNING

ITS WHERE I WANNA GO FOR A LONG LONG TIME. Headed for my first prawning session with W35E peeps . Gosh, it have been ages since I met them and we headed out.

Gathered at bishan mrt and waited for everyone to reach and head to the bus stop but it began to rain damn damn big. Something like a typhoon . We boarded bus 88 and reach bishan prawning house . Damn excited. We all shared rods with one another. I shared with heng, kevin with GJ and bebe, jecinda and sheng de share one rod.

me and jec

me and bebe

me and kevin

Starting, kevin kept fishing up prawns, followed by bebe they all. But sad for me and heng, we only managed to catch like 2 prawns and it like super small one somemore. But guess what ?

kevin handling prawns

bebe, jec and sheng de

me and heng on our first prawn

look at heng, he is so happy

cliques

jec is no scared at the prawns claws

me and kev

me, jec and bebe

WE ARE THE ULTIMATE WINNER IN THE END . How cool is that ??? Damn fun, we practically catch 2 prawns in 5 mins =))

me and heng

yeah

jec and bebe

happy family =)

After 3 hours of prawning, we collected all our "VICTORY FOOD" and see who is the winner and catch close to 40 prawns in that 3 hours. We went to bbq our prawns and order chicken wings and otah . And we all sat down eat and talk our way through and the dinner we had is very enjoyable.

After that , we went to The Prata House at Thomson road to have our dinner and then we went to play L4D2 at the nearby lan shop. It is so damn fun cause we all went to play in the so called, VIP room and we shouted our way through during the play . Which makes it so fun and the girls play better infected compared to human . Cool right ?

WE ARE SO GONNA DO IT AGAIN ❤❤

I WANNA GO AGAIN

PRAWNING PRAWNING PRAWNING

I WANNA GO AGAIN

PRAWNING PRAWNING PRAWNING

I WANNA GO AGAIN

PRAWNING PRAWNING PRAWNING

I WANNA GO AGAIN

PRAWNING PRAWNING PRAWNING

I wanna go with bayb or maybe with Ka jie or Agnes . We gonna have so much fun ❤❤.

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CHRISTMAS CHRISTMAS CHRISTMAS

I din get to celebrate Christmas, let alone enjoy it. Instead I spent my Christmas and my Christmas eve working. But its good pay thou, giving out flyers at AMK hub with bayb and its 30 dollars per hour.

Dav was damn good, he came down and helped me with flyers for 2 days straight . Cool shit la. Luckily he was there, showing me off his Itouch and further sets my in getting a IPhone =)

ITE outing next week and we gonna go drink, watch movie and have dinner . Gosh, I have no idea how much I missed them ❤❤

ANYWAY ANYWAY ANYWAY

MERRY BELATED CHRISTMAS YA'LL

AND

HAPPY NEW YEAR

❤❤❤

2009-12-19T05:17:00.000-08:00

YEAH YEAH YEAH

I skipped the last day of lesson and went to play bball with my class guys. They are Jin Xiong, Lai Fu, Cheng Kok, Zhe Ming and Fu Jie. We wanted to play in school but the court can only be opened at 4.30 pm which is totally stupid. Then I bring them to fushan to play. The weather is super cool . Cloudy and windy.

NICE NICE NICE

After that, we went to have lunch at 883 and I watch my dear cheng kok finish 1 plate of chicken rice, 1 kuey chap, two plain roti prata and 2 cans of ice cream soda. Seriously, luckily he gt go gym to train one if not .... and one more thing, luckily he got looks. LOL, he is gonna beat me and scold me again when he sees these things that I have wrote.

Sorry Cheng Kok KOR KOR ....

HOLIDAYS NOW AND I AM TOTALLY NOT ENJOYING IT AT ALL . I swear to a certain extent cause baby is coming over everyday to acc me . Oh man, how is that ??? huh ??

Anyway, I am working my ass off almost everyday . Shit. But I am not gonna grumble anymore cause I wanna get my iPhone before school start .

ME WANT iPhone 3GS !!!

I seriously need to change a phone. I have using my old Sony Ericsson flip phone for ages already . But that phone can take nice photos lei . Abit cant bear BUT I wont throw away that phone . It have so much memories and saved messages inside. Last but not least, it have accompanied me through almost 12000 + photos. LOL.

Baby is at camp now. Not the army one, he is at the outward bound camp at pulau ubin . Shit, I miss him so much . He just called me and told me his tent is invaded by ants and he have to go kill those insects. He said he will called me tml . Gosh, miss him like hell. Totally cant imagine that he have to go to NS.

TSK TSK TSK

I dun wanna think abt it anymore. HAHA.

ANYWAY,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY FRIENDS THIS DECEMBER MONTH !!!!

FELICIA

DESMOND

MEI LING

PING HONG

JASMINE

JESSICA

RONG SHENG

AND

LOTS MORE ...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR

MWARKS MWARKS MWARKS

HUGS HUGS HUGS

LOVE LOVE LOVE

ENJOY =)

2009-12-04T02:56:00.000-08:00

SHIT SHIT SHIT

I SWEAR THAT I WILL BLOG MORE OFTENNNNNN !!!!

Seriously, I will try ~

Me PP Presentation is finally over. * JUMPS IN JOY * I was totally scared of PP initially. And I even went to the extent to write pages of notes the night before PP presentation. But guess what ? I forgot to bring it to school.

FUCK FUCK FUCK, that is the only thing I can think of at that moment.....

I was so nervous that day and I was nearly late but I saw FJ and james there. We talked abit and I wasnt so tense anymore. Mei yang came after that and she asked me to go before her. So I went in and I just start to talk and talk, explain and explain, answer and answer questions that is being raised to me. But I managed to pull it well, the comments that they give are real good

*smiling and moving eyebrows*

RELIEVED RELIEVED =)

PP is over but FYP is starting . Shit when will all these start to end ? At first, I could not find any FYP team mates and when one confirm already then last min ps . I was quite pissed off with it. But manage to find enough FYP members.

PHEW , enough of all these shits.....

*moving on*

Class have been really really great . Playing CS with the class whenever there is break and having breaks with them. Super enjoyable. We also cam whored all lesson . Super fun .

my guys in class starting from the left

andrew, issac, cheng kok, patrick and lai fu at the back

they all showing off muscles

me and cute Patrick

LOL

NDOO suddenly popped out

skinny and FAT

serious look

imitating cheng kok dp

Ndoo is so sad

me and pat

Jin xiong, zhe ming, pat and FISH

LOVES

PAT LOOK SO POETIC

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Bayb brought me to watch case 39. Frankly speaking , I think its a not bad movie cause some parts really gets you shutting ur ear . I love to see bayb expression when we watch scary movie cause he is damn cute, he will not look at the screen and he will look somewhere else . His face is damn blur.

We both had a pet and its called lao mao . Its a damn cute weird looking soft toy and it is orange in colour . Whenever I am feeling angry, sad or what so ever, he will take lao mao out and cheer me up .

LOL, I know you all may think we are crazy, yeah we are crazily in LOVE

2009-11-22T07:24:00.000-08:00

So many things have happen these days. So many things to do. I have to work and stuff. UT in school is already damn frustrating . I totally have no time to study . But somehow I managed to get over it .

HOORAY FISH !!

Out to celebrate Chan Meng Birthday =)

Things are getting better for me and baby, I kept calling him lao mao and tweety bird cause his head is big and looks like one. Okay, not funny

Baby is now officially 18 and he hao lian to me that he can buy cigarettes all but he dun smoke. I dun know what is his intention of showing off to me . Wah lao eh, I like can buy 3 or 4 years back luh. LOL. I was like thinking he can go clubbing already. Should he go ? But he doesnt like that place but whatever la , his friends will have theirs ways of psycho him go one. CONFIRM !!

Same Birthday. Bayb and isabel

Isabel and her family

I also went to wendy's place that day after isabel's birthday. Although, there was only me, wendy and michelle . But we have great fun . We drank, talked and slackee. Best night ever. We are planning the next one which is yee zhao birthday, she wanna go clubbing .

Wtf , clubbing ? I dun even know how to dance maybe I can go there watch their bags or something. Or I can dance some mambo moves . Its so damn fun . You just have to follow the person .

on the way to print my pp poster

Shop uncle

damn cute

Went to Sunshine Plaza to get my pp poster printed out. I randomly went in one shop and ask the uncle to print it out for me. The uncle is damn cute and round. He does everything in slow mo . There was only me and one guy who is from rp as well printing the poster but he took 1 hour. But it was worth , with laminating somemore. Can ask Agnes go there print her poster too.

Baby also came to meet me for late lunch.

<3>

I heard from jonathan that he finish presenting his pp poster already and he have to present for 35 mins and present 2 times for 3 faci . The faci was like shooting him questions like a machine gun. But he still managed to pass. Damn good can . Hope I can pass also and quickly get it out of my mind.

Anyway, those who wanna know which shop is this, just tag on my tagboard =)

I need to sleep already otherwise tml no mood for studies again . Nights people. LOVELOVE =)

2009-11-10T04:56:00.000-08:00

It have been long since I blogged. So so many things have happened. Relationship problems is the main and big issue.

We had a really big fight and quarrel last week which sets both of us to ponder over our relationship . We had a " cold war " for a few days and things still cant be like last time. When I saw him at the canteen, I will avoid him and just walked away. I had been really moody and heartbroken as I sense no change in him .

Wanted to broke off but couldn't bear. After a few days, we start meeting up and things became better . We talk things through and we are better then before. I really hope that we can go a long way after so much . Hahs, so much for the sad stuff.

Met up with delwyn these few weeks also . He is also experiencing the same thing as me and He just seems so bored and when I talked to him abt things, he is always have his soul floating to some other places . I can sense and see that he is thinking about lots of things but whenever I asked him , he will just said : Nothing la.

Gosh , it seems like everyone is having these problems but I can assured you all that these days will be over soon and good days will definitely come waving to you. Just be a little more patience. Everything will be okay soon.

Trust me =)

Anyway, I skipped school today just because I am too lazy and I want bayb to acc me at home and he did . Although, he keep thinking abt his lousy grade but he still make the effort to come my house and slack . We bought and ate breakfast with my daddy, we played CS, icy towers, watch movies, talked and disturb one another. Nothing beats a big warm hug from him. I just need him to be by my side thats all . I think all girls wants all these from their bf.

LOVE, CONCERN, ATTENTION, CARE, TIME, HUGS and KISSES

MEGA LOVE <3

Hope we really can last =)

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OIE, DAVID

MSN LA

2009-10-27T19:39:00.000-07:00

那天我揚起帆　想看看未知的海
心裡很多話想說說不出來　
雖然我臉上看不出來

天空一樣蔚藍　卻換了多少雲彩
那時的你讓我幸福百分百　是否為我等待

我知道我的愛一直都會存在沒有你淚停不下來
你知道我依賴多不想Say Goodbye
我痛說不出來

我知道我的愛一直都會存在沒有你快樂都停擺
某一天我期待和你笑的燦爛回頭看愛　都在

站在你的門外　我決心不在徘徊
心裡很多話想說　說不出來　
但我想你一定都明白

時間過的好快想念卻不曾更改
現在的你是否幸福百分百　
我應該怎麼猜

我知道我的愛一直都會存在沒有你淚停不下來
你知道我依賴多不想Say Goodbye
我痛說不出來

我知道我的愛一直都會存在沒有你快樂都停擺
某一天我期待和你笑的燦爛回頭看愛都在

我知道我的愛一直都會存在沒有你淚停不下來
你知道我依賴多不想Say Goodbye
我痛說不出來

我知道我的愛一直都會存在沒有你快樂都停擺
某一天我期待和你笑的燦爛
回頭看愛都在愛一直存在

2009-10-27T18:14:00.000-07:00

Its heart-breaking but I guess we have no choice.

Goodbye love

2009-10-20T23:33:00.001-07:00

GOSH , I FINALLY HAVE SOME TIME TO BLOG AND UPLOAD MY 21ST BIRTHDAY PHOTOS .

Frankly speaking, I am very very HAPPY that many many people came over to my birthday chalet that day . But on the contrary, I really feel like I am getting old. Imagine another 9 more years, I am going to be 30 years old already.

FUCK. I totally hate it . Shit sia, the moment i think of it I will keep shaking my head non stop.

Anyway anyway anyway, I shall thanks those who make the effort to come and the presents they bought . For those who din come, they also send in their birthday wishes.

THANK YOU XOXO

TAN WEILIE

DELWYN

ROSETTE

BENEDICT

CUI TING

AH MUI

AH MUI'S BF

YING HUI

YING HUI'S BF

DERRICK

ISABEL

SKIP

JOHNATHAN

DESMOND

JECINDA

NORLYN

KEVIN

SHENG DE

HENG

FABIAN

IAN

ZUL

AZAR

VIK

MARCUS

HASAN

FIKA

MY SISTER

SHERMAIN

AH MEI

THIRD AUNT

Thanks for coming okay ? and all the presents that you all gave. I had a wonderful birthday. Thanks to you guys.

My ITE cliques also celebrated with me on the 18 at Fish and Co. It is also very very fun to be with them . We can totally talk about anything and after so long, we still remain contact with one another. Hope this chain doesn't break at all .

Celebrating at Fish and Co is the nicest thing cause I get to share the seafood platter with Chan meng and drink the super duper big cup of the Jungle Freeze.

ULTIMATE COMBINATION

And then they will ask us to stand on the chair and they will sing us a birthday song and give us a sparkle . Its freaking nice and at the same time . It is super pai seh cause everyone will stopped eating and looked at you . But in the end, me and yu ling din stand on the chair, we just stood there with the sparkle and with birthday songs and wishes going into our ears.

2009-10-11T18:12:00.000-07:00

I know I know I din blog for a long time. I was too busy hanging out with delwyn , having school and working . Life have been fun. I have been posted into a new class again but this time around, I am with classmates that I knew from last semester . So its still not so awkward .

❤ITS RIDZWAN RAYNER VAMPIRE HUNTER❤

Its has been effing long since I met up with him . I think about 1 year . Oh man, I miss him so much can . Now he is driving already and he is doing his best friend part by fetching me from school and bring me out for dinner.

❤❤

Work have been okay but there is damn alot of internal conflicts at there . Although all is auntie but they seems like they are not happy with one another but in front of the person they will still smile and all. WTF. It so damn funny. I chose to be a listener instead, I dun wanna get sweep into this kind of conflict .

I GOT A FUCKING PAY INCREMENT !!!

My doctor is like damn good . She said that she is very happy with my progress there and decided to up my pay so I am earning $7 per hour.

My pp report was being asked to rework by my pp advisor and it totally sucks. My pp is like detailed and he said that its too long. He said it should only be around 2ooo words ++ . My is like 4000++ . ARGHH !!! But I got 2 more weeks so I still can cope with it, I think .

I will upload my birthday celebration photos up here and my chalet will be at Pasir ris Costa Sands but I dun know the chalet room number yet , will update you guys again . See you guys there

❤❤

2009-09-25T07:39:00.000-07:00

MY BLOG IS DEADDDDDDDDDDDDD

Basically, I have no mood in blogging these weeks as I am busy with my job. Yes, a holidays job . I reckon not many people got work in these holidays. Some wanna rest as they have chiong too much for their test in school . Some like my lao po too lazy to work but I still managed to ask him to go work for some fair.

Working as a clinic assistant is not easy as it seems . I have look down on it . I have to memorise the procedures of all the adminstration work. I give one example. Just a simple work permit check up . I have to spent around 5 mins just to stamp the date, clinic stamp, paste labels. Then fold them nicely behind the patient's cards then register the paitients , record their temp and the time they came in. If they are from some requested companies, I still have to ask them to sign on a file and filled in particulars for them .

ETC ETC ETC ETC ETC ............... PLENTY MORE TO COME

but I shall stop before you all get bored

I still have to dispense medicine and read the doctor's handwriting . Why doctors dun have nice and neat hand writings ? They all must use cursive handwriting . Fuckin confusing and difficult to read but I still managed. Although, I am abit slow.

I wanna find another job but lao po say he will yang me . HAHA. Dun know true anot. He dun even have job luh. Right now, I just wanna work and save money for overseas trip next year with mummy to korean and taiwan with lao po.

me and lao po

he doesnt like me calling him this . I think is because it make him feels sissy

but I dun care

HAHA

That day, I was looking around me and I realised that my friends have started to go missing . I quarralled with lao po that day and I wanted to find my friends out but none of them is free. Okay, that feeling sucks . Sucks real bad.

Where have all my friends gone ?

Anyway, I found some nice Lady GaGa self drawn pictures on deviantart and its damn damn nice. Share it with you guys

Thats all, I will try to blog tml if I am not lazy to on my lappy .

LOVE LOVE

2009-09-13T03:31:00.000-07:00

My weekends are always about staying at home and slack . But I feel like damn bored . All I do is watch tv all day. Finally, I am feeling bored after all these times. All my close friends knows that I dun go out on weekends cause I dun like the crowd and I am laxy to doll up to go out .

But these kind of life have finally bored me .

These few days I have been calling bayb all day and we haven been quarraling and THAT IS A GOOD THINGS. Damn happy can . Love him super much .

I am gonna post pcitures that I went out with ROSETTE LOVE AND TING TING LOVE. I want another outing with them again in the holidays.

sepia

rosette

rosette : eh ?

me and ting ting

♥♥♥

hugs ♥♥

ROSETTE ♥

♥♥

♥ ROSETTE AND TING ♥

♥♥

2009-09-09T19:11:00.000-07:00

Holidays have been fufilling as I still managed to meet up with my sisters and spent good quality time together . hahahh. Especially Rosette, she never fail to make me laugh.

That day, I went temple with my family to pray my grandfather. Long time since I met up with them already. My second aunt and third aunt was there also. And SHERMAIN SIM din pang seh me like last time. But she still bluff me that she is still sleeping when she already reached there and waiting for me and my mum .

My little small and bis cousin was there also (JAYSON, BRYAN AND SHELIA). Shelia cut her hair like real short all thanks to shermain her sister who brought her to cut her hair ate some 10 dollar shop

BRYAN AND ME ❤

ME AND SHELIA❤

SHE REFUSED TO LOOK AT THE CAMERA

I THINK SHE IS PRETTY ❤

❤❤

SHELIA : WHY SHE KEEP TAKING MY PICTURES ?

JAYSON AND SHERMAIN ❤❤

NICE LEII ❤❤

❤❤

I think its quite nice also. The whole family went out for lunch and my uncle send us back and on the way back . I dun know why I thought of a very funny chinese name,

LIANG SIEW MAI ~~

HOR

YAY

SHERMAIN : WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH HER ?!?!

BUT BUT BUT

Then I was keep repeating it in a funny tone and jayson followed my steps. Super funny. All the adults was like who is that in chinese . MAJOR LOL. Jayson also know how to sing Thriller and dance like MJ la . Oh man and he know how to sing some Celine Dion's song and in perfect tone.

CHAO AH BENG, JAYSON

SAN YI AND MY MUMMY ❤

LISTENING TO ADULTS TALKING

SHERMAIN GIVE A DISLIKE FACE

JAYSON TOOK THIS ❤

BO GAY BOY, JAYSON❤

SI BEI ACT CUTE ❤❤

❤❤

ME LOVE THEM , THEY ARE ALWAYS THERE WHEN I AM LOW.

I remember one time, I grew out of love and that time was near my birthday. I went to my 3rd aunt place to stay. I was at the room. I think bryan, ah sheng, li xin and shelia (my young cousin) know what happen and they all made and drew a birthday card for me and still comfort me in the the cards. hahahs. Cute right they all ? At that time they all are only in primary 1 and kindergarden .

SUPER LOVE ❤❤❤

BUT BUT BUT, EVERYTHING IS GONE AND I HAVE FOUND LOVE AGAIN =)

MADNESS LOVE TO TAN WEILIE ❤❤❤

2009-09-05T19:14:00.000-07:00

I have been real busy that's why I din blog. Now is the holidays but I have to work and do my PP. Gosh, so much things to do . But luckily I have work so that I can use the money for my 21st bdae.

Met up with my LOVES and faci during the holidays and we went to some hotel for tim sum buffet. We were talking nonsense things there and took many many photos. After that, we went to faci's condo to play black shot and WII. The guitar hero is MADNESS FUN . Ah mui keep losing to me in the head to head and we keep saying that we wanna form a band with ying hui and faci . But too bad luh, only me and ah mui was entertaining ourselves. Ying hui and Faci was too concentrated in their games.

our fav faci

ah mui eating

he always kena bully by us, LOL

ying hui

ah mui

LOVES

ME AND AH MUI

FACI, AH MUI AND YING HUI

FACI PLAYING BLACKSHOT

US PLAYING WII

AH MUI AND YING HUI

Around 4 plus, faci fetch us to Marina square . Oh man , the whole day we kena chauffeured around singapore. But faci left after that cause he is not feeling very well. So left with me , ah mui , ying hui and ying hui's bf . We all went to change the faulty lava lamp and so coincidentally , ying hui's slippers broke and she is walking around in MS bare footed. But she went to bought her slippers at four skin and we left to AMK hub for dinner !!!!

BARE FOOTED

AH MUI HAPPILY TAKING PHOTOS

LOVE THIS

SISTER

our vintage phone

(ah mui and me)

ah mui's phone

Crazy ah mui

ying hui and bf

she wanna act as arab girls

nice shot cause by me

ah mui and me

twist

i can see you

she force herself to do it

ying hui

ah mui

Ying hui and her bf went home first, only left me and ah mui in AMK hub looking for a place to have our dinner. We went to ICHIBAN SUSHI, my fave and hers too. We took like 20 mins choosing what we want to eat and both of us are damn hungry, we kept on looking at the rotating sushi bar.

*DROOLING*

OCTOPUS

LOVES OCTOPUS

OCTOPUS SUSHI

HER FAVE FOOD

ARGHHH !!!!

CHICKEN KATSU WITH CHEESE

UDON

TOMATO SEAFOOD SOUP

SALMON, AH MUI FAVE

(she say this is a must have)

LOOK AT HER, SO HAPPY WHEN IT IS JAPANESE FOOD

LOVES

Our food came and we talked and eat and left the place with a very very full stomach. After that, we went to buy ah mui head band in the end she bought a hair clip, ribbon one somemore. But its nice la . Suits her. We headed home after that cause I have work the nect day and we were both tired.

Baby is still having his cruise and he bought and made me something there . But he wont tell me what is it. He called me when the crusie is leaving the port. Oh man, I hate to admit that I miss him much .

2009-08-29T08:38:00.000-07:00

LOVE LOVE

I am wondering should I close down this blog or continue this with tumblr (another awesome blog of mine). Self praising never fails to entertain me ...

Recently, I think I contracted a disease called Ultimate Suay-ness . I have been awfully sway this month . I contracted sore eyes I think . It not painful but it feels like there is somethings stuck on my upper eyelids and it is damn irritating .

FUCK FUCK FUCK

Somemore I lost my specs too but mummy gave me money to get a new one already . Thanks mummy . Mummy also helped me to get a clinic's job which is just 20 mins from my house (if I walked fast enough...) Thanks again . The working timing is pretty flexible so hope I can cope with it .

The IT fair job's people still haven called us which is like major WTF-NESS cause if the IT job is cancel, I will lose up to 400 dollars in just 4 days. ARGH, faster call lei . I desperatly need the money for my 21st birthday and buy a branded bag .

I will be holding my birthday at a chalet. Common right ? I wanted to hold at a club (suggested by yamei ) but I guess not alot will be interested . I dun even know who is keen to go yet . Well, I am inviting all my RP friends along, it will most probably be on the 16,17 ,18 (3 days 2 night chalet) Really hope to see you guys there . I got a feeling I gonna get drunk there but I WONT LET THAT HAPPEN , ROSETTE !!!! You wont have the chance to do it cause that time I will give some lame and stupid excuses that I need go toilet la , hahas. I just hope a lot people will be there =)

I LOUD YOO ALL VERY MUCH BUT before I sleep I wanna share the things that I drew just now which I think is major AWESOME-NESS .

2009-08-26T07:04:00.000-07:00

WEEEEEEEEEEEE

ME FINALLY FINISH MY EXAMS ALREADY !!! All the stress will be gone. Now I wanna work and earn money during the holidays. So fast my year 2 sem 1 have past . I met many people and have been really good friends with them . Although I change class everyday , I still make many many good friends which is those I listed as my sisters in my Facebook . They are the ones who gave me strength to go thru all tough times

OHMYGOD, I LOVE YOO GUYS

I took damn alots of photos after the exams. The whole place look like a graduating ceremony . Everyone is taking photos with one another . I started to think back when RP first gave me a course to study in RP, not knowing what my course is about I went to enrolled in the course . Actually , I dun really like IT in the first place and I thought that people who study IT wont click with me BUT I was all wrong . I actually clicked with them most . How ironic and I also love the, the most . They are the super steady ones compared to the rest . They offered me help willingly and also helped me and give me idea where to open my birthday party .

Awwww ~

me and nana

Zakiah and Nana

me, Zakiah and NaNa

nana and rayner

rayner, my besties

me and besties

HTML class

Love them all

XOXO

he likes to act cute

Syam and Kumar

xoxo

Rayner driving us to CWP

DATABASE CLASS, XOXO

ANN, my love

She rushing meet her boyf

But she still wanna take a photo

My sisters

she like like that take photos cause her face will look super sharp

Rosette and Benedict

LOVE

Me and Rosette

Nice Pic

he insist that he look nicer

Harun is crazy

Cranky =)

They are happy because exams is OVER

Fika and Zakiah

me and besties

Rayner

KL twin towers and taj mahal

he is irritated with us keep taking pictures

stupid harun

GROSS RAYNER !!! LOL

YEAH

me and another sister, she loves scary movies like me and my mahjong kakis

SCARY FACE

My eyes have been red these few days. I think is because of the FreshKon contact lens I have been wearing and they have been fuckin irritating. They always get blur one and my eyes will get irritated.

SUPER IRRITATING LEI .........

I gonna change another brand when I have money. Anyway, people I have another webby which is http://iamphy.tumblr.com/. It is like a blog but more fun cause yoo can post very high resolution pictures there and you no need to wait for a long time to upload the pictures and yoo also can post music in the website. Its freaking cool and you all should try it out !!! Add me there if yoo have created one alright ? And I will follow yoo back =)

For example like me, I cam post this kind of pictures to show how I feel at that moment

(I did it myself)

My front page

http://iamphy.tumblr.com

GO TRY GO GO GO =)

2009-08-22T06:42:00.000-07:00

Finally, I have finished my test, well , not all but most. I finished 3 already and I left one more to go .

YEAH !!!

But after the exams, I am going to work and pay my bills and have some money for my 21st birthday.

I was feeling quite fucked up cause I really have no money already . Just because I found a IPHONE at school. I gave a very very high price for it . I need to compensate the owner, pay the fines (which is the punishment that the school gave me for finding a IPHONE and not returning the phone to the lost and found area. )

Seriously, who will go and return back the IPHONE that they found ? They will confirm take and use it one ma. HELLO ? ITS AN IPHONE THAT WE ARE TALKING BOUT HERE. If at that time, your phone is going to spoilt already and you dun have enough to buy it, will yoo take the phone ? Dun say yoo wont, most people will cause its a natural reaction and instinct to do that .

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Okay, I give yoo 2 options :

A) Return it to the lost and found area and be a completelt honest man with no natural greed that everyone possess

B) Take the phone and use it as ur own. Think that your phone is not in a very good conditions and the phone is the lastest one somemore . (who wont be tempted by it ? )

The logic is the same as yoo found a 5o dollars note on the floor , will yoo take it ? SAME LOGIC

Anyway, I still need to pay my hp bills, fuck the IPHONE make my bills so ex, have to pay for my clothes, I also lost my specs and I have to get one. Lastly, is my 21st birthday, I have to fork out the money myself.

SIAN AR, FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

I need money more than anything now and yes I need to chill out NOW !!

2009-08-14T04:37:00.000-07:00

REGRET AND SORRY

I did something and I super regret it . But it is a mistake that most people will do in their lives . And punishment and hearing will be heading their way soon, probably next week. I am already prepared for any punishment which may come. But I fucking dun like the feeling of being interrogated by people.

At this point of time, I found friends that really care for me . There are 5 of them and I really appreciate them for asking me how am I and comforting me. My horoscope is like fucking accurate, it like never gonna be so accurate like now la . FUCK IT. Its like being sarcastic towards me . But what it says really does reflect what I am going through...

The above post was written when I was in trouble but now everything is over . I am happy bout it but the matter still haunts me. I still can remember when I was waiting for my turn in a room and when I was being called in, the atmosphere was totally strict . I was standing alone with at least 7 people looking at me. I was scared but luckily, the whole things was short and when I came out, I went "Phew".

I have been through this before. Actually compared to the last one. This was nothing but it was the same scary feeling I have from last time. I felt that I let my mummy and daddy down but that point of time, I din know it would be so serious. It was just a things that everyone will do if they are in my shoes. But everything is OVER already. I was touched when my faci saw me and waving to me happily when the thing was over. He like my father sia, happy to see his kid safe and sound.

During these times, I found out that I have really good friends that care about me . Although I change class everyday but I still managed to find some good girl and guy friends . They are BaybLove, Ying Hui, Ya Mei, Rosette, Ann , Ting Ting, Wendy Woo, Ridzwan , my facilitator and another two is my cousin . Without them keep consoling me , I think I not go through this. They are my moral support .

Happy 1 year Anniversary

Zakiah, Ting Ting and Me

Ridzwan Rayner and me

Ridzwan Rayner and me (BESTIES)

me and wendy (1o years friendship, I simply adore her)

me and ah mui , my another love

me and ying hui darling

Rosette, Ann and me (LOVE)

Zakiah, Ash, Ridzwan and me

(I love my face here)

Thanks for all your concern

JIA YOU FOR UT

LOVE YOO ALL SISTER !!!

XOXO